War Games Holidays! 2020

   

 

Introduction 

So on the First Sunday of December 2020 there was a big Pay-Per View Called NXT Takeover War Games and the Show was a phenomenon with 2 matches that did involve the War Games Stipulation match. The War Games start with 2 wrestlers representing their teams of 5 as they fight in 2 wrestling rings surrounded by a steel cage.  Whoever won their match that has an early advantage as in each wrestler comes in one at a time and the team with the advantage they go first and when all 5 participants from each team are in the match the War Games can finally begin and then the match can finally be decided by pin-fall or submission. So it has been one of the most major matches of the NXT Pay Per View Event. War Games has had so much aggressive displays and relentlessness that shows stamina and even perseverance and have relentlessness and there are winners and losers but effort in a match like this always prevails. 

What are the War Games We face within Our Selves

Well I would say 2020 especially heading to Covid-19 Pandemic was a challenge for myself where I was working on a ton of growth and focus on myself Like I mentioned in my previous blog, continuing to work on me and not worry about or be affected by others say. Well The Pandemic has been as a given the most toughest events and man the fact that things were not operating like they usually have in the last 30 years I have been living. Seeing how everything began with over shopping just by the Fact that there was a potential Lock-down shows were getting cut short and even Sports events were cut down and there were loads of rumors and speculations of when everything was going to be back to normal to if The NBA and NHL Season was going to be canceled or even if the season was going to be resumed. Also there were moments where we had to rely on Social Media and even Zoom Became one of the biggest main sources to have meetings and even Facebook Live and YouTube became the Main sources or Church services and other shows like Award Shows well Award Shows are aired from the hosts house and couch even talk shows. Racial battle has happened and the Election and Presidency has been a huge ploy in that exact year. So much has happened and even when the Covid Lock Down has settled a little bit and on top of that as step by step phase has indeed faced several ups and downs and even there were cutbacks that has began. The whole roller coaster of the Covid situations where there was good and bad was a battle especially during the Summer where the stats well based on the numbers were insane whether good or bad. Then The Fall and Winter Came and there has been a battle of the Holidays where Thanksgiving was here and with Christmas and New Years where we have to stay home and celebrate with house members or even Via Internet well it is going to be something well personally for me I have never experienced for 30 years. Something I will explain is how have we been battling isolation and even the Impact of celebrating the Holidays very differently. 

 

 

Why Did I title this Blog War Games Holidays? 

So I have been hearing a lot about how mental health has been a huge deal during this time of the Pandemic on how we can not celebrate like the Usual especially where we have tons of gatherings under normal circumstances and this is where I feel for those who live by themselves because it a lot more different than living with just people period. It sure is different than living with people whether it is with family, roommates or even a Spouse and kids it is really different but can be as frustrating staying in the same scenery. The Holidays has been feeling like at a strong degree the world has been in this together as in the term defeating the virus and staying in the positive believing this can and will be over but not get too stressed out about it and just staying grounded and not getting too worked up about it.  As I live with family but with the same family and not to go out and Celebrate the holidays like usual but In the house I live in I am kinda glad to have a space where I can liberate but for me I find some thing I enjoy watching during the holidays like NBA Basketball on Christmas or even Football on Thanksgiving so I find some things I do enjoy and on top of that I see the best of both worlds having people to live with and having a space of some sort where I have my space. So the War Games of living by yourself can feel like oh I am alone and you have to adapt to things out of the norm where you can not celebrate the holidays like normal, and you have to celebrate maybe virtually through social media or even with a small amount of people where you have to make sure you do not have any sicknesses so the battle is wanting to celebrate the holidays but making sure everyone is healthy and making sure you have those Mental Liberties as well. So Hope The battle of even grief or even emotions or even just fighting the pros and cons of the Situations Is A Strong War Games and Hope on the Happy Holidays you Battle these War Games and stay grounded so you can prevail through the many Challenges! 

Don't follow "Them" Lead yourself!

 Introduction Video

What The Video Explains? 

The Video Starts with basically "They Say"  and Russell Westbrook does basically unusual antics, basically telling what people say and not even what people do. I felt in all honestly it was a very funny commercial but I felt it really also had a very strong message behind some ordinary Joe Commercial that viewers would think it is. I honestly am a huge fan of the drink Mountain Dew. Love the taste and even have been drinking since I was a child. Seeing all the Mountain Dew commercial this was one of the best ones I have seen with the entertainment and even the message behind it.

How was the experience when I was doing "They"? 

The Experience was really tough just going through it and getting out of it. I can look back on a lot especially at a point where I faced criticism because of what I did, and on my end all I did was run from my issues instead of deal with the situation and face the issue. I was sitting on my hands and counting on people and counting on change to happen and I was overly frustrated because all I did was point the finger at others instead of pointing the finger to myself especially if some of the effects were to happen by my very own actions. Laying the blame or even just let their criticism and what they do and how they feel control me and it can go beyond family which was the main criticism I faced it was also criticism from friends and even how successful they were in their certain fields whether it was having a car or having a job. There were so much events I have faced that led me to struggling with being myself  and thinking I have to be "Rude" First, and oh how people in Boston have Terrible Attitudes quote, unquote where really it is how I have been interacting with strangers that have led me to bad situations. Not to go on a tangent or anything. But I was looking at others and how I could be like them instead of working on how to be my best self. There was a point where I was in a guilt trip and feeling sorry on how I let "Everyone" down and had to withstood some harsh criticism eventually to a point where I got defensive and even frustrated as well and man I know how it feels to go from those transitions and even have mixed feelings. Basically I remember the positions of how it feels to even go through the Motions and just wait on people without taking any initiative and focusing on them and you wait then your effort will be wasted and your attitude will not be at the level you want it to be instead your attitude is where you want it to be for yourself instead it is for others also the Perseverance or Purpose would not be for your health and benefit for yourself but for the health and benefit for others. That was something I went through and looking back at it it was worth going through at a young age because I really began understanding it. 

The challenge is aiming to Focus on Me And being my best self

Focusing on ME was a challenge because when you had to change what has been giving you tons of unnecessary barriers and Much of the time we end up focusing on the person and the circumstance instead of focusing on what cost it. I think what really cause me to lose sight on the cause and effect. Cause and effect is another way to dealing with yourself and really aim at the principal cause if you do not deal with that then you let other people as in THEY and Circumstance control and dictate who you are. When I moved in the new house I live in right now I was overcoming my social problems that cause my family residence a near eviction because of my interaction with a woman and her dog. Well really seems like everything was over and we were about to get evicted but that did not happen we eventually moved into a new house and this was the year where Russell Westbrook was on the road to setting a record of games with a triple double and on top of that he reached it after making a buzzer beater shot to seal the 42 Triple Doubles. So at the time there were a lot of things I had to deal with but seeing Russell Westbrook's resiliency and willing to give his energy day by day was one of the best innovation I saw especially after losing his teammate Kevin Durant. I was battling my issues and focusing on what they said and their criticism and trying to prove them wrong, and running from it. I was at a point where I kept getting consequences and proving them right because of my own actions after the series of Dejavu. I finally learned I had to prove myself and want to aim to do better and not look at how they see the situation instead focus on me and focus on the problem and have thick skin to deal with those issues and begin understanding the who, what, where, and why to better myself  and not focus on them really just reaching to be my BEST SELF and not let fear, or any setbacks or past history become the Status Quo. 

Working Hard to the Core!

Introduction

So This past Thanksgiving Weekend was anything but easy for many others but for myself it was really worth getting through. I enjoyed my Thanksgiving and it gave me a chance to reflect on all the Thanksgiving events I have experienced in the last 30 Years and man this was a lot of reflection and a lot of events to look back on. So as this years Thanksgiving was the most different as most of everyone had to stay home with the people they already live or have small get together dinners or chat via Zoom and have the large gathers virtually. So As Thanksgiving have good football games with pull away finishes. Seeing how the holiday and even Black Friday became something different especially where the holiday promotion were radically different. So I had quite a Thanksgiving Weekend and even a good Black Friday as well. 

My New Black Friday Equipment

Well Just New Exercise Equipment thanks to a product promoter and even the consistent workout posts that I have been making. Man who would have thought in almost in the last 8 Months of my workout progress pandemic I would be producing tons of acknowledgement and even an Impact of some sort. Apparently Those Last 9 months which seems like we are already heading to now, has been a wild ride of so many ups and downs as there were points I have regressed and even points where I have progressed it has been a journey but the fact I have continued to be consistent in my exercise was a challenge. But there were days I wanted to be lazy and just sleep in but I know somewhere inside I had to use the self motivation that I did not had when I was younger. Now I do want to do better but there were times where I would catch myself just spinning my wheels like I have experienced before where I tell myself I want to do better and I am trying but I am not showing myself I am just telling myself and I am at a point where I want to show myself.  So the fact that I was consistently exercising that got me operating a new equipment. It was in all honesty a big challenge on the first day.

How did it felt using the new equipment?

Well on the times I have been using the Perfect Push-up I have Also Use the Core Fitness Equipment. The first time I used it it was a bit tough really because operating alongside after using the Perfect Push-up I had to make Sure I was using it right which indeed was not too hard but really positing my self was the tough part but glad I finally got through that. I had a different ab roller and it was quite a new twist it has been a while since I have done ab workout and I wanted to take another step into trying something new. So Indeed I did but I had to learn how to use it the right way and on top of that I had to make sure I was getting the work and the effects as well. Eventually Soon I was using the new Core Fitness Pro Ab roller and I was as getting commented need to get those extensions in the right way and go all in and get the motivation and innovation to use and low and behold I began feeling soreness and even some sort of development. So the soreness I did felt but I did surprising came ready for the next day and felt energy instead of Laziness in which indeed I was glad. So I even got new Push-up Bars alongside that and it has been a new challenge. I always have to have the urge to do run of the mill workout with weights like Bench pressing or even hang cleans is just one of them. So the fact that I have been exercising at home and even been consistent, it showed how much hard work produces high reward.

Are you a Self Made Man?

Introduction

Daniel Bryan is a Professional Wrestler and being a fan of WWE and I began to watch him in 2010 on the inaugural episode of NXT. Even he though he wrestled in squash matches even back in 2002 like the match he had against John Cena. The fact that there was a point where he was eliminated and had one of the biggest losing streak and still be ranked number 1 among many of the other NXT Rookies and even showed potential in losing effort matches against WWE Stars like Chris Jericho and even Batista. Even The fellow contestants. It was a privilege seeing him go from being criticized and thinking he was not going to make it to begin his steps to making accomplishments. Michael Cole who was a wrestling commentator and announcer was a huge antagonist to Daniel Bryan calling him a Tool, and not having It factor and Not having Personality. Every match that he lost, Michael Cole would always throw shade and eventually Daniel Bryan said he does not belong in the competition and felt like he should be eliminated due to his shortcoming in matches and also the other person who said should be eliminated should be Michael Tarver who was one of the rookies to beat Daniel Bryan but out of the two the biggest deal of that comment was Daniel Bryan. So after getting his first pin on WWE Show Monday Night Raw leading his team to victory. But unfortunately the following night on NXT he was eliminated. After the elimination it was not the last you saw Daniel Bryan in fact he made another appearance as "WWE management" allowed him to return to NXT and explain why he made the decision to eliminate himself. So he talked about how he learned about the WWE and The "Politics" on how WWE like the Wrestlers that they make and the characters they build. Daniel Bryan Claims that he is a self made man.  As he is not like those Wrestlers in the WWE but he is a very talented one and the best wrestler for the job in the WWE as he also claims as well. 

Why did I speak about Daniel Bryan in the intro?

The Title of the Blog "Are you Self Made" Well I will connect the Title with the Intro of when I talked about Daniel Bryan. Daniel Bryan has started on the WWE NXT Roster has faced challenges and seeing him lose a number of Matches until the Match on Monday the night before he was eliminated. So the fact that he got a pin fall victory the night before his elimination was a huge tune up to prove that he came in knowing the challenges of how The Characters in WWE are developed by the WWE. Also how the WWE has the standards as called "Politics". Where they want the big guys and how they want the wrestlers they make by the machine. Daniel Bryan tries to prove that he is a self-made man and does not have to meet the WWE Political Standards to succeed. So the fact that even 3 months later he even said after him and the fellow NXT Contestants hijacked a wrestling match and attacked everyone in sight and Daniel Bryan Came out and said "You are not better than me!" "You are not Better than Me!" Then dished a Kick to John Cena in the face. 

How are you proving to be a Self-Made Man?

Well I always had to take the first step is always check your own Self Esteem, and always show up with self esteem and battle your insecurities. After I was arrested and even had a pending court case I was in a point where I was not as successful as the family friend who was the attorney, or even the workers at my mom's former job or even my brothers who graduated with degrees. Being arrested and being put on the news and then going home after being bailed out of jail. Since many incidents where I faced similar situations I got into I had to continue to battle the criticism, even where my family addressed that I could not be independent and eventually I went from being guilty and defeated to being angry and defensive and all I really did was tell them that I can be independent. So it went beyond how I was attacked my media and officers to battling criticism at home to working on battling myself and my own challenges. What really motivates me and what drives me to push myself to fighting my own limits instead of focusing on THEY I focus on ME. I begin to embrace who I am and how and what I need to do to better myself. FYI one of the steps is to Realize: You are the only one who can control yourself and no one else can control you. As much as you cannot control anyone else. 

Being a Self Made man is really embracing who you are and understanding you do not need to be like everyone else, you have an opportunity to be better than everyone else. As I will mention in another post. Seeing How Daniel Bryan at the begging evolve into his own identity and succeed as a Self Made Man. Well I am starting to believe as before I felt I had to be like Everybody else well I am glad I lived the life that I have lived. I am also glad to be who I am especially after battling my own inner battles of do I have to be like everyone else, or even do not have a friendly persona. I have to be mean or rude like everyone else. It was just a mental prison I keep putting myself into where I have to be at everyone elses expectation and even being in the prison of rebellion and anger where I am trapped in everyone dished out negativity and was still tormented by past consequences and . Instead of being self made and take leadership there was a point where I would begin to take control, be laser focused and even take pride and control and gain the killer instinct into defeating your Goliath which is whatever problem is Holding you back. As the Goliath is whatever the world or everyone else's expectation is or who you should be it is about proving to them that you do not need to be who they want you to be or even who they are. 

Get Out!....

 So this past Halloween I saw this movie Called "Get Out!" And it was a well done one of a kind thriller. Seeing the movie Get Out! Has a significant theory as you watch it, and If you have not Watched it please Check it out. This Movie was a Phenomenon. Seeing Get Out was unlike any other Horror Movie and what made the Movie So Great was The Theme of the Movie and the action in the movie that was so relatable and so worth of what the dialogue. Even the scenes in the Movie and how unusual the scenes look. Seeing the Movie in the Protagonists perspective made it all the worthwhile. The development of the movie was downright impressive. 

Why did I Name the Blog Get Out?

Well not only because I saw the Movie Get Out. But just the whole plot of the Movie Had such a great Theme to the movie. So there was a part where he deals with racial confrontation where he was the passenger and his girlfriend was the driver but regardless the Officer asks for his License. Well Not to Spoil the whole movie but the protagonist had a dark past and stuff that cause him to have unusual habits and the depth of the movie where he gets in unusual moments of dealing with his dark guilty past. So The fact that the horror movie directed by comedy actor Jordan Peele turn into one big surprise basically this movie like I said before had one of the biggest theme throughout the plot. As in the next paragraph of the Term Get Out!

What am I trying to get out of?

So as the quarantine has progressed there has been challenges and I have had my challenges to face over the years. Covid-19 has hit so many people even professional athletes and entertainers, on top of that so many shows and games and other occasions were abruptly put on hold as the seriousness of the situation has happened. Where the NCAA March Madness Tournament was cancelled which means the 2020 tournament was non existent. The Olympics was out of the equation so everything operated where things were not in according as we all thought it would be. 

So During the Pandemic I had so many challenges in my previous posts that I had explained beforehand and where I went through my own trials and tribulations but however I had moments where I would feel I would never get out. Where we were at the time face evictions or even face restraining orders while were on the verge of finding a new house, and even being on the verge of not getting the house that we live in right now. We can feel like we are in a sunken place and think we can't get out or even have some sort of fight to get out of our issues and challenges. Well all the stuff I went through I eventually got out or I should say we eventually got out. The Challenge of Losing weight in which I began accomplishing and on top of that also dealing with home matters during the quarantine in which I had to get out of and getting out of all of that required perseverance and Mental toughness and not get dragged down by doubt and negativity.  

 

Being As strong and Quick as a Defensive Lineman

 One of the Strongest Defensive Lineman 

Defensive Lineman is one of the toughest positions right behind the most underrated positions in the NFL the offensive lineman. Offensive Lineman is literally in the Opposite of A Defensive Lineman as they are the two toughest positions. As they both involve pushing. But defense is pushing and even using swim moves and spin moves and they have to keep up with the offensive lineman as they have to firmly plant their feet and grasp their hands on the defensive lineman. As the defensive lineman have to constantly push their way through the offensive lineman who is blocking them, they have to be strong and Also quick and athletic as well. Overtime it became one of my favorite positions because of how important it is to push through and past something in your way and then get to what you need too get as in sacking the quarterback or tackling the running back. There has been so many defensive talent on the line in all the years. To name a few Defensive Lineman you have Warren Sapp, JJ Watt and also Michael Strahan who retired with a Superbowl ring. Then you have a strong athlete on an eventual overachieving team who has continued to stay on a high level. As you see his workouts really explains why he is on the high level he is. 

Rams Player Aaron Donald #99

Aaron Donald, the man who was 2 time defensive player of the year stood out year by year. Racking up number of Sacks and even making athletic highlight plays as well. As he was the heart and soul of the defense for the team for a number of years and as an alumni of University of Pittsburgh. Every week whenever the Rams appear I would be excited to see and even record Aaron Donald's sacks on camera seeing those highlight reels. Especially seeing how he pushes through the offensive lineman using strength and agility and then executing to getting the sack or even the tackle. Aaron Donald became one of the big stand outs and continued to excel at a high level nearly every week. As he at 1 point of all players ranked #1 on Pro Football Focus. Seeing his nice car even house and family really comes at a great price the work for it is the most important part as well. 

Texans Defensive Lineman JJ Watt #99

JJ Watt who has been at his peak in so many years that he has played. He was one of the biggest Standout in the 2014 and 2015 season, especially 2014 season they made a big season turnaround after the huge tailspin season as they finish 2-14 after a promising 2-0 start, as the following year they finished with a well deserved 9-7 start. As JJ Watt was in the huge contribution of the Teams moderate Success from making Important sacks to even trick play touchdowns on top of that. Much Like Mike Vrabel did. So The Fact that JJ Watt who was another huge standout also had a phenomenal workout ethic and on top of that even an incredible diet. The fact that his hard work also carried to the success that he has been having even though he has been slowed down with injuries, he manage to still have a ton of success. Also behind the Scenes he even has had a big 9000 Calorie Diet with a huge ton of protein and the hosts on a YouTube Channel actually tried the challenge and it was quite a challenge especially burning off the calories by intense exercising workouts. So alongside athletics and his biggest donation to The Houston Relief after a hurricane hit the area. He is a strong athlete and even the co host of the show Ultimate Tag is great but still remember he is a top All-Pro Defensive Lineman. 

My Personal Perseverance and how the 2 Lineman have been Encouragement to me?

As The last 7 months where I began changing my workout routine as I have been having struggles where I realized how out of shape I was. So there was a time I did 6 days a week and as I was doing the Elliptical I realize the work ethic was too overbearing and I was not feeling really energized as I had a lot of mental weight and physical weight and even spiritual weight that I really want to lose. So it did started tough and then changing what and how I eat was quite a lift. Also I had a tough past and what I went through and what has brought me down and would just kick me while I was down at 1 point. I had to battle criticism of my challenges and even the unusual reactions from when I was locked up after being arrested and just being nervous and scared and not confident to if I was going to be free or not. Getting in the similar situations and getting arrows thrown at and eventually getting scolded and just thinking about after all the few years of going to school and getting into incidents where I end up  dealing with charges and court cases and my plans just turn into a complete fiasco. So when I do my pushups or other abs workout and even the elliptical I realize I am pushing myself through something much as pushing myself past an opposition to getting to the finish line like Defensive lime man pushing themselves to get to the quarterback or even running back.  So it does come with perseverance!

Being Mentally Suspended and then being Relentless

 The Aftermath of the Court

So As The case finally ended and I was completely relieved. Well Probation was still in tact and I served only 6 Months as I took a plea. So there were so many things I had to withstand which was my own guilt and also relief as I had mixed feelings. So Everyone Including My Eldest brother from Overseas finally got their money back. With the situation of Money died down as the case ended the direction would become mostly about me and looking back at me. So The process of probation had tons of ups and downs but it did had more downs than ups. As I was going to see counseling as I have been seeing even before trial and the whole arrest episode has happened. So after Trial and after going through the Probation it was quite a roller coaster. As it began with my mom criticizing me and now question if I have the abilities to resume life or get into school and get my life back on track. I have been having various thoughts based on everything around and everyone around me. At the time I was dependent on my brothers to build a breakthrough instead of figuring things out for myself and really all I was doing is just escaping instead of combating my main issues and fighting tooth and nail to deal with whatever I was criticized and upbraided for. So The Probation started rocky and as protective as my family was they were making sure I follow the Probation Procedure and as I paid my Probation Fees and even did some evaluation which was kinda for me and It really seems they was a lot of Self-Discovery I had to do. With an incident happening at my counseling to starting to go to the gym independently step by step. So after the months of Probation are up well we were still stuck as we are at the same time trying to overcome the aftermath of the situation. Well The sessions I had were repetitive and I was just aiming to get back into school and not focus on what has led to the unnecessary situations in the first place. I was guilty at first and then it just eventually led to anger and frustration even fear and setbacks and even lashing out, as I dealt with my mom's anger and over protection and fear. Had to go out with her everywhere and it finally began to build bit by bit by bit, I started to feel pushed around resigned and even feel like giving up and began to blame So I was circumventing the progress and not aiming to be above reproach and it has caught up to me. I was too busy telling them I can do it and getting defensive whenever I get criticized for my social behavior. 

How did the 2016 Patriots connect with my journey?

So as Tom Brady began battling the case of the deflate gate, I was battling the Campus Gate where the case lasted for several months. So As I took my plea and serve the 6 Month Probation a year later Tom Brady took his 4 game suspension. Well I realize taking punishments can come in many ways and seemed like Tom Brady took his 4 game suspension very well where the 2 other quarterbacks stepped in and it really was impressive seeing how the Patriots really stand out as they won 3 of their first 4.  Even the Defense did their major part to help them get the wins they need. As Tom Brady made his return he came back and helped the team win their last 11 out of 12. Despite their loss to The Seahawks they still had one of the biggest showdowns as the game ended in one of the closest games. So Patriots finished 14-2 and practically stormed right back in the Super Bowl overcoming the Texans and The Steelers. So The biggest challenge was Super Bowl 50 against the Surprising Atlanta Falcons. The game even spoke how big the mountain was to Climb as the Patriots allowed 21 Straight points in the 2nd quarter as Tom Brady pick 6 was a contribution to the 21 points allowed. As The Patriots only scored 3 points in the first half. It all seemed over where everyone was giving up and even throwing in the towel as the Patriots were just plainly viewed as just one of those run of the mill teams that would just Phone it in the rest of the game like in Super Bowl 48 where the Broncos did try but eventually phoned it in. As The Patriots did exert their attempt to fight back as they displayed their "Laser Focus" And Julian Edelman displayed his Relentless and mind you they did begin a major comeback after being down 3-28 and low and behold the comeback did happen and the entire narrative has changed. As the doubters and fans who have thrown in the towel has gotten a rude awaking when they nailed their comeback and then eventually sent the game to overtime as the Patriots won the game in OVERTIME!  

On my end as my Probation ended I was still facing fear and doubt and there was still anger and the plan was to progress more slowly but my mom was holding back. As I was going through trial and I was going through probation and there were times where my mom's fear and confidence was tested. I was focused too much on how my mom felt and was not striving on how to be my better self. All I wanted to do was escaped the issue and the problem and not want to hear but problem was I was not at all tackling my own problems and why My family has been criticizing what I have been saying. After 1 outburst I finally let out how I have been feeling after trying to restrain it and for the last 2 months I was fed up and then I exploded. There were 2 different times my mom would call my counselor and complained about my outburst and one thing I do not like is how she explains it and downplay what I did. One thing I don't like what I did was become very defensive, make an outburst and allow myself to be dismissed and on top of that even not counter the conversation and explain my actions in a very firm but not overaggressive fashion. I messed up because after the conversation where my family was trying to throw me a bone and I blew it because I did not deal with my own challenges so it has led to my family taking their confidence and liberties back which means I lost those liberties and confidence. How I lost those liberties and confidence well To tell you where I was down 3-28 in my situation I been through many of my 3-28 situations from the days I was arrested to being in court, being in near eviction, and even the house I live in now we were so close to not purchasing the house. What did those things have in common? They involved perseverance and even time where we would feel down and out eventually We would have to put ourselves in a Position where we would always try to fight back or we can just give up and say it is over and be the defeated victims we are plotting to be. So The 1st Court Case that we had to endure 9 months of Court and as we won the case and I served 6 Months of Probation and yeah I was in fear of trial but you know I was glad I got through it looking back. Even During the Time we were near facing eviction we failed getting the other house reason was the seller refusing to sell the house, so we were on a hunt for a new house and Low and Behold I found a new house in which the house we live in right now there was a point we were not going to get the house and at 1 point we had to cut our losses and found another house, but eventually there was hope somewhere. Which means things began to come around as we eventually got the house and eventually made the closing and got it. The fact we went through the moving process and finally got there it was a major phenomenon. When we finally moved out of those two apartments where my family faced terrible management and gave us a hard time and then where I had my issues there. We finally moved into the new house and finally was so glad and I can even look back on how much growth we been through after those challenges. 

  

What did I get out of all these challenges?

For me to be at 28 years old at the time and have 3 Court Cases this was my 3-28 story where I was trailing in the game. I was in the near of pleading guilty but right on my 29th birthday, the case was officially dismissed and we went through numerous turmoil as this court case lasted for over a year as the court did try to pursue a conviction and I did fail. So overtime I had to deal with my challenges of impulses and even irresponsibility and courage as well. I had to learn overtime how to control the narrative and show them I can do it and not Tell them even when they say you can't. One thing I have failed in was to be Laser Focus and learn how to have courage and deal with uncomfortable situations and be strengthened by. Learning this overtime was understanding the cause and effect and realizing how much work it takes it is almost like an alcohol addict where they had to do rehab and where the first step was admitting their issues. As I was battling my issues, I finally learned how to just be BOLD and on top of that learn how to be assertive and just deal with conflict when needed and start seeing the production of the situation. Understanding the process as well does really come a long way, as something I eventually had to understand but the process also comes with the work and not skip any steps, and on top of that playing the Rat Race. Let these challenges elevate you and bring out the best and not the worst in you.  

20 Going on 30: Final Part of the Court Process

The Moment of Truth

So our lunch break ended and our Court hearing began as we were in the courtroom that had the official hearing. So I came in and after all the evidence and all the investigation and even numerous trips to the courthouse. It was finally here and on top of that they were not anymore evidence to be passed around. So As we head to the Courtroom we saw Numerous Police come out with the Name Massasoit on the car. Well none of the other cops could have serve any involvement with the court case because they were not involved in the investigation. So in the afternoon after Our Lunch Break, The official officer who was involved in the investigation finally arrived. So The hearing began and even to the point where We Had to do the Plea and Honor before the hearing began and even as the judge arrived. So as the Police explained the report he indeed received, It looked bizarre completely from the jump as he explained. Just hearing how everything started with a casual conversation and then leading to the departure of the hug and even the felt of the lips on the neck. The description of the assailant seemed like a normal college student. The information of the investigation and how the Lawyer fended off the other irrelevant investigations and complaints on the campus where they tried to make the Victim A composite one well it backfired. The final counter was where they looked through the pictures of solely me after the first few days of looking through all the other photos and random photos scans that seemed very irrelevant and not even the students of Massasoit or the clear evidence of the students of Massasoit. So after the Hearing ended and then The Judge spoke to my Lawyer and the DA and even The officer man and well things did not seem good at all. Well The Reason things were not good it is because of how terrible the investigation was and even The Judge Scold at the Officer. So since things were going our way and really seems like a Happy ending. 

The Aftermath of the Court Case

For the First Time in the Pretrial Period! We had to go to court 2 days in a row and this would be our final 2 days going to court. So when we finally got back to court, I was a lot more eager in a positive fashion than I was in the beginning of the Court Process. I really came a long way and I had a mixture of faith and fear as the court and the legal system was attacking us like Lions and even came down to trying to get me convicted. I was seemingly going to be on pretrial probation as the case was coming to a close, well I was hoping to finally get out of it. So as we are finally got the moment of truth, it turned out because of the excessive charges I could not be on Pre-trial probation. But they cut me a break and to be honest they could have gave me the pre-trial probation, I felt the charges were way over the top and also they were very very lethal and I never thought in a blink of an eye I would be in a situation like this. So I had 2 options I would either Take the Probation with 3 dismissed charges, or face the trial where I could be in jail for the 3 charges I got nervous and took the Right way out and Took the CWOF as I really want this case to end.  Unfortunately My mom was no fan of the decision as she Pulled me to ask me one on one "Did you hug the Girl?" Truthfully I said "Yes" With Semi-Confidence well I wanted this case to be over and get a short probation period and on top of that I just hoped this would last for only 6 Months. Well My mom was displeased but after standing before the Judge and got the 6 Months Probation instead of 1 year. I was really happy and glad and Had a big Smile on My face because All I had to do was serve 6 Months of Probation instead of Serving the 1 full year the District Attorney requested.  Well Like I said I was glad it was over and not having to court again but the journey was just continuing and honestly I was too intimidated to go to trial and wanted to avoid a Jail Sentence especially with the Investigation and even What the Victim Could say. Well seemed like I made a smart choice as my brother did get his bail money back and was happy about the case being over. But the case was over but the Probation journey was just beginning. 

This song was practically My personal Soundtrack to the whole Court Process. Well One of my songs. 

20 going on 30 (Part 4): Court Process

 After Finally being released: 

Well Once I got out and got into the car this was where everything began. As I expected I had to hear how upset my mom was among all of the scrambling and even the emotions where they took me away and locked me up. Man I really expected my mom to yell at me but the only thing I didn't expect was what she was going to say including my brother being there. As my brother told me "They would not have done what they done to you." Well he did had a good point as I was warned about this. But I never knew what I was warned about would be happening. Well It did happen and the return home after a nice delicious meal at Wendy's and finally no longer eating Jail Food. So I was glad even though My mom told me that did you know I was on the news and My Brother explained how I end up on the news was the fact that they showed my face at every opportunity and many of my friends saw me on Newspapers even Television. My Dad also saw me on Television and he was in complete shock! Well As I went back home the beginning of everything was about to begin. 

The Return Home and The Changes:

So It has been nearly a Month and Half After Moving into our 2nd Apartment in Massachusetts, well returning home and things were beginning to turn a huge ton upside down. I was put on pretrial and had conditions and well my family made sure I was following it to a T. And even making sure I do not get into any trouble whatsoever well it was a new thing and it really hit hard I could not return to school. I had an intense conversation well really I listened or hear as my Mom and My brother talked and on top of that it was very unsettling as I rot in guilt and also fear. For a number of Months we had to go back in forth in court I had to say it was tough cause we were stuck in the unpredictable and our backs are practically on the wall. Well As I was going to a bed on the temporary new normal it was even included my other brother was moving in with me as it seemed like there was a debacle where he used to live as indeed it was with our older brother he did live with. So The beginning was rough as my eldest brother scolded me through the phone about the situation and then hung up on me. As I was expecting that to happen I was angry and even bummed on just the start of all of it on how everyone was infuriated and basically damaged even though I struggle to be glad to be free from jail even though it came at a very serious Price. Being at home and only being with someone to make sure I am not in any accusations or situations where it could lead me back to jail. Everyone was on their toes so it was understandably a very uptight situation.

How did I felt at the time? 

Well The Beginning of the Pre-Trial Procedure had me feeling trapped and feeling very mopey and very sulky. I was rotting in Guilt. It felt like The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air Episode where Will Confess to his Uncle that the pill that Carlton took was from his locker and Uncle Phil yelled at him for it as earlier in the episode He yelled at his son Carlton as he was in the hospital for taking the pills, so late in the episode after Will's Confession Uncle Phil forced him to apologize to the whole family, as Will apologize he even cried at the end. So As I was just thinking that there was a part of me that wanted to cry. Everytime I come to church I could not do my usual greetings for a while as I could not give hugs and on top of that I only at minimum could give pounds. Especially with the case going on and could not talk about as it could be used against us. Man I was stressed I always talked to my brother about this after church and was very nervous. I had strong imagination of me going to jail or even being in prison or also Becoming a Registered Sex Offender. I was very nervous and Much of My nights I was in bed sleeping with my heart Pounding and everything feeling unpredictable there was a point where Guilt and Nervousness Turn to Frustration and then Hope so it was a complete roller coaster. 

The Court Process 

So We have been going back and forth and even were meeting individually with the evidence that was served to us. The meeting at my lawyer's office did start with the 3 charges that I was facing and the possible consequences if I was pleaded guilty as in which I could be a Registered Sex Offender for nearly 20 years. Even face possible jail time. I had no Criminal History or even had ever been sentenced. Well as The Court Meeting began back in November 2014 was a pretrial and Judge told me if I did not show up I would be Sentenced to 3 Months with NO Bail at before going to court I thought it would be the official trial. As the Court Case Progress there was a time where we were getting evidence and even how the Investigation really went down thanks to a great family friend that has been helping us who is a lawyer. So indeed the investigation involved which did include the victim and even how the investigation progressed over the Last 2 weeks before I was arrested. So The investigation was a lot different than I was expected and even how the Victim explained the identity and the time of the incident. It turned to be a lot different than I thought and I even thought there was a written report. So We eventually met with the Investigator and he asked me plenty of questions after paying the Investigator. Well I have been feeling a huge string of  hope and on top of that confidence that we may win this case as indeed I have feeling a little bit more better, but still tense and on my toes. So after Gathering all the evidence and even having a string of pre-trials as the case begins to drag as it develops awkwardly and very frustratingly, we finally got to the point where we officially had our hearing and after failing to have our hearing especially when the alleged victim was here and basically we had to hide and avoid contact and even My family had to protect me as well. Luckily there was not a point where we had to proceed with the case the victim had to be involved. There was a point where she almost see us but like I said It was great my family protected me from seeing her or even her mom. Well We came back a week later and then we finally had our hearing after having a delicious Lunch Break. One thing I did Learn from our Lunch Break is looking back when Our Family friend Lawyer Had to advocate for my mom when we were living in an Old Apartment that was taken over by a new company that was giving my mom a hard time. Seeing how The Lawyer was tough but fair. I remembered She told me The Reason She was Tough, but fair and the reason was in her words, "They were bullying your mom." Well It was good she shows how she fought back. Well As this is was the tip of the Iceberg of what to expect in court.....

20 Going on 30 (Part 3)

 Where the beginning of everything started?

I was arrested and eventually got driven to the Stoughton Police Station well this was a surprise I was composed and even nervous at the same time but I knew what the police was capable of and even at the same time hoping I could just return home back in 1 piece. Well we were far from that potential possibility so after the police station I was still in question of  why am I arrested or even what happened. Eventually I got driven to The School I was attending Massasoit Community College. So I was finally there and then I was forced to sit on the chair handcuffed and then Luckily I had to go to the bathroom handcuffed and then I saw more family members which were my brothers and then A family friend who is the daughter of my mom's Friend came to my aid and almost my whole family's aid. Who would have thought she would come all the way to the school I was going to and was handcuffed? Well I didn't and I was glad she was here seemed like The Cops were acting tough and I was threatened by them. Thanks to the Lawyer everything changed and the attitude completely changed. 

So What was the Outcome of the situation?

Well after the Lawyer got the information of what happened and why I was arrested finally came to light. Well the details of the situation did not really spill. So there Was a choice where I would return home or being temporary held into court. Well we did got the call and then the result was in and unfortunately I could not stay handcuffed to a chair. So when they finally got the call what should they do they had the decision what should they do well they the most painful choice for me and everybody and that was for me to be held in court. So I was going all the way To Plymouth to be in a facility and well it wasn't as bad but it was brutal I did had to stay overnight but I did get served breakfast in the morning and had to change my clothes and got back to the clothes I wore when I got arrested. So We drove back down as I was stuffed in the back and got driven back to the courtroom where there was a hearing where I should either go home or be held on Bail. So after I heard the report in detail of what happened and it hit me hard and it made my odds of me going home or even being held on bail. Well TV Crew Arrived and then the whole game changed as I seen the investigation was put on TV lead to my interview being put on Television. Oh! I cannot forget the previous guy that was arrested and put on Television and put on the Internet as well. So It took me way to long to even connect the dots. Well at that time I did not. I was in an emotional wreck after hearing about the incident in which I knew would upset my family members and it seemed obvious about something I was involved in on top of that. SO as The prosecutor spoke about the incident and the Attorney was advocating for me and I had to stand behind her and hide my face. Well cameras managed to get my face and because of the news they had to hit headlines even though they understood the incident and my challenges and also my past incident that was not on the school they tried to use against me. In Which was the incident in my apartment and apparently it was to no avail since charges were not being pressed. Well I was near home free as the one big incident where charges were being pressed as it served as the sole factor of their decision in which I had to return to the Correctional Facility and be held in $5,000 Bail. 

The Imprisonment

As myself being held have continued as I resumed staying in the facility. This was one of the most Merciless things to have ever happened. Hearing from my fellow inmates as they spoke on the cops and hearing other situations. One of the inmates got only $200 on bail after an incident with the cops on a ride home from a party and the other guy was held on a default. Well I was held on 3 charges and I was looked as the worst on them all because of an incident on campus. So As I was in the inmate room with many others and well I warmed up to them. At first I thought they would be unfriendly and dangerous and even violent, well it didn't turn out that way. Turns out they had other personal issues and I felt bad for a few of them. I now feel bad for myself too because The torture continue as I had to wear a burlap in a Locked room and then after I got spread on the News I had to wear handcuff and then even shackles on my feet as well. This was unbearable and just seeing how my torture was continued and the fact I was labeled was the worst it was very disgraceful and very disturbing. For me to go through all that and then get trapped in a cell after being in a burlap isolated it was completely brutal and then for my mom and other family members to be tormented as well. As I have been trapped there for nearly a full day as everybody in my family scrambled to get the money so I can get bailed out of jail and well eventually they did and as they Finally got the money and the intercom said "Renald Calixte!" As I responded "Yeah" and then they said I have been bailed out. I couldn't believe I had a big grin on my face and for me to have a huge feeling that they would be upset of what happened at school and well who can blame them? But they were nonetheless still happy to see me as well.  But As I was released it was still far from Over as Part 4 I will explain a ton more.